Sometimes memories are better left untouched

It's annoying how some people want things that they've lost. Or maybe it's just humans in general.

You've had a chance to cherish what we've had together, but you chose not to. Now that I'm a Pacific Ocean away from you, and when I've finally gotten over everything, and let go of everything, you come knocking on my door. Trying to bring up all the "good memories" isn't helpful at all, you know. Just because I care(d) about you doesn't give you the right to abuse it.
It just goes to show everyone how selfish you are, and now that I'm not emotionally unavailable to think clearly, I've realized how unfairly treated I've been. 

I'm glad I've gotten over everything we've shared together.

I mean, maybe I sounded really harsh, but it's the ultimate truth. There's always that someone in our life that hurt us so much, but they're just too important to for us to sweep them out of our lives. I understand how precious the memories are. I really do. But just like words, some memories are not meant to be spoken of ever again, and these memories are better left untouched. At least for now. Maybe ten years later, I can look back and share a laugh or two with you, or be nostalgic about the moments we shared. But right now, it's just too close to my heart to take your constant pestering about our memories.

I know you well. Too well. Doing this just means how much you regret letting me go. Or it means you've just realized how much I've done for you and tolerated you and let you do your thing even if it meant me not being the top (ten) priority for you. And you miss that. Either way, I'm done being your back up, both then and now. So please, grow up and realize that you can't be selfish in life. Or maybe you can. But not around me. I've spoiled you for way too long. It's now time for me to think about myself, to be me for me, and not for you.

And, I was naive to think that you and I could be friends. That just shows how hung up on you I was. Not any more. It's time to bury the memories and leave them untouched.

'till next time
SandyFish ♥ fish out of water

Happy Pi Day ♥ White Valentine's Day

It's Pi Day! Being so excited makes me sound like a nerd doesn't it?

But, on the other side of the globe, Asians are celebrating White Valentine's, or people who have their significant other anyway. And that also means my Facebook page has been bombarded with statuses and pictures of... well couples and their l♥ve

Sometimes, I feel like everyone around has a boyfriend, except for me obviously. Not that I desperately want one, it's just sometimes depressing when I seem to be the lonely one T.T But with a boyfriend, I don't think I'll be comfortable eating all the food I eat now, and can't just pretend I'm busy when in reality I'm just staying in my dorm room to League of Legends. (Okay, I sound more nerdy by the minute) Well, I mean, I can't have the best of both worlds, right? (Every time I say that, it reminds me of the Hannah Montana song.. #sorrynotsorry;) )

But, for some reason, I went to this Thai restaurant with my friend (their avocado green curry is to die for, I'm spoiled for the rest of my life, not even exaggerating), I got this fortune cookie which said:

Okay, first of all, forgive me for my chipped nail polish

Now, back on topic. I know the messages in a fortune cookie never means anything, and I'll never try to convince myself that it does, but I just find it amusing how accurately it voiced my thoughts. It's not everyday that you get a fortune cookie that tells you love is around the corner when you kinda sorta wish you weren't the only single person in your group of friends.

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On a different note, I think I've fallen in love with spring here on campus. The cherry blossoms are blooming and the scenery is to die for. The flowers aren't even in full bloom yet, so I just can't wait to see how beautiful it will be when it's full bloom. 

The sun makes me so cheerful every day even if I have early classes in the morning, which is nice for a change. It's a bummer how I have finals next week when the weather is so nice outside! Just hope that when I get to San Francisco for spring break, the weather would be as nice and beautiful too!

'till next time
SandyFish ♥ fish out of water 

Spring || Just Some Thoughts

If I was jumping on the bandwagon, who knows how late I am?

I mean, who really reads blogs nowadays anyway?

But this is for me, not for anyone else, and is not created in the hopes of having oh-so-many views.

This is for me to keep my sanity in my hectic life, and to record my thoughts when I'm too lazy to pick up a pen and write (Wow, that sounds lame)

It's March, and it's too late to make New Year's resolutions. Not that I'd keep to them if I ever decided to make them.

But in the middle of procrastination just before my finals (and spring break!) I realized how much I've grown since last year.

 I've finally learned to let go of people who do not deserve how much effort and thought I put into making them happy, and finally realized that as hard as it may be, I really am better off without them. It's just tough sometimes, to really admit to myself what and idiot I've been for not letting go just because I cared to much about the other person -- even if that meant hurting myself.

Emotionally, I am ready for any new challenges that will come in the next quarter, but I think I really need to start going to the gym more. Just can't get myself to do it yet :D

'till next time (so I felt xoxo was a little too cheesy)

SandyFish ♥ fish out of water